Why I am about to be selfish.....

Like most people, I have been conditioned into thinking that being selfish is a bad thing. In fact I am so conditioned that when I do something good for myself or buy myself something expensive I often have feelings of guilt. I then want to justify my purchase or worse still, lie about it or hide it. Eeek! Most of the time I only buy myself cheap things so that I feel little guilt & I won't need to go to confession.  I really like buying second hand clothes & trinkets as there is very little guilt there and I am recycling. Win Win!  I'm also good at buying for others or giving things away.  I am a master at giving!
There are times when I do things for people & with people when I really don't want to, mostly out of compassion, but sometimes out of guilt or obligation. I hate to disappoint people I love, but doing things out of guilt & obligation serves no one. Perhaps I just want to be liked or feel good about helping others? I often choose not to break a commitment even when circumstances have changed, just so I don't disappoint. Others don't seem to have a problem changing plans when needed and I just accept it.  I may feel annoyed but I won't say anything because I don't like confrontation.

"If you're not selfish enough to align with who-you-are, you've got nothing to give." - Abraham-Hicks.

When on a plane you are told to put on your oxygen mask along with your life jacket before helping anyone else. If we don't save ourselves, what use are we to others? 
Most of us don't like feeling like we are being "selfish" and yet selfishness is really all about being in vibrational alignment with the "self".  We must keep tuning into our "self" and do what is best for self to stay connected to Source energy. And being connected to source energy is my dharma.  It rocks my world. 
Osho says, "A truly selfish person is one who tries in every possible way to be blissful & peaceful". If we are all truly selfish then perhaps we will all feel blissful & peaceful.  Isn't that what we all want? Isn't that what the world needs?

Being selfish may ruffle a few feathers, disappoint of hurt others feelings, but I am hearing the call. It is for my own good, my highest good.  What is a life that is lived to please someone else?  No, this is my life & I must do what pleases me.  For me to reach my full potential I must allow more space to listen to my higher self, follow my heart & live my life. Being selfish is really just taking care of self & being authentic. I really want to be authentic, so I must do what it takes, even if that means being selfish.